Saturday, March 19, 2011

Preparation for Breakaway Service

Tomorrow, I get the opportunity to speak at FSBC's Breakaway worship service.  This has actually been kind of a blessing and answer to prayer.  Earlier this year talking with some of my mentors/teachers one of the things that I wanted to really work at getting better in was preaching.  Well this weekend has definitely given me that chance as all in one week I get to do it three times!  Honestly, I'm a little freaked, because I haven't even gotten comfortable or confident in preparing one sermon much less three!  Needless, to say I'm a little nervous.  I'm most concerned about speaking at FSBC, because it is my home church and several of my mentors/teachers and other influential people in my life will be there.  So I'm just a little scared about how I end up doing.

However, as nervous as I am and maybe feeling overwhelmed, I have learned a bit more about myself and I guess the goal of preaching.  Through this past week and reflecting on other sermon prep times, I became conscious of thread within each experience.  I don't know how much of this is just me or if this is something essential to preaching, but in each experience I've identified 3 basic questions that need to be answered.  The first is, who God is.  The second is who man is.  And finally, what God has done for man.  What I've found is that in preparing for any topic each of these questions must be answered in some way because the answer has huge implications for how we are to respond to the message being given.

If the topic is finances, we need to know that God is the owner of all things.  Man deserves nothing.  However, God is the giver of all good gifts.  Each thing that we have is a gift of God, but ultimately none of it belongs to us.  So to thank God for loaning us what we have we should be good stewards of what He has given us and be using the resources that we've been blessed with to fulfill God's mission.

That might not be worded the best way but it's true.  And in each topic that comes up I think that answering those questions is a vital part to faithfully and responsibly presenting the Word of God.  It also leads well into prompting a response toward the action of God.

In one sense it prompts a reactionary action toward God and in another sense it prompts a exemplary action. What I mean by exemplary is that, as followers of Jesus Christ, we should be doing what our Master does.  Christians should be mimicking the action of the teacher.  So when reactionary action is positive then action is prompted from gratitude, while exemplary action is spurred on from duty and sometimes inspiration.

So I'd appreciate all of your prayers as I chart unfamiliar waters tomorrow.  My mind is already frazzled trying to figure out how to prepare for three separate topics.  

Christian Challenge 2010-2011 Recap



I'll be at Sandario Road Baptist Church tomorrow talking a little bit about Christian Challenge.  So I put this slideshow together to give the people there a little peek into "life" at Challenge.  

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Monthly Evaluation Template(revision 1)





1.  What physical/health goals do I have next month?
(Personal)
Goal
Action Steps
1. 
a

2. 
a. 

3. 
a. 


2.  How do I want to improve my relationship next month?
(Domains of Life)

Domains
Action Steps
Family

Friends

Christian Challenge

Epic

FSBC

Army



3.  What financial goal do I have for next month?

Saving:
Primary Spending Account
(balance of)
Secondary Spending Account
(balance of)
Primary Savings Account
Secondary Savings  Account
Misc. Account
$1300
$150
$50
$50
$50


Giving:
Ascend Ministries
Church
Christian Challenge
Caring Ministries
$60
$20
$20
$20


4.  What personal development goals do I have for next month?
(Life Roles)


Short-term Action steps
Life Roles
Student
Mentoree
Campus Minister
Writer
1.        
1.        
1.        
1.        

5.  What professional goal do I have for the next month?
(Ministry/focused Work roles)
Short-term Action Steps
Ministry Roles
Developer
Creator
Writer
Coach

  1.  
  1.  


  1.  
  1.  




Scheduled Tasks
  1.  
Unscheduled Tasks
  1.  





Timeline

Week 1:
Monday-

Tuesday-

Wednesday-

Thursday-

Friday-

Saturday-

Sunday-

Week 2:
Monday-

Tuesday-

Wednesday-

Thursday-

Friday-

Saturday-

Sunday-

Week 3:
Monday-

Tuesday-

Wednesday-

Thursday-

Friday-

Saturday-

Sunday-

Week 4:
Monday-

Tuesday-

Wednesday-

Thursday-

Friday-

Saturday-

Sunday-






6. .  How many goals did I complete this month?


7.  What activities took up most of my time at:
(so you know what kept you from achieving goals in full, or what activities, places, people were conducive to helping you achieve your goals)

-home:


-school:


-Challenge:


-work:

Life Centering Practices
(Scheduled Times)
Worship time
Retreats
Recreation
Solitude
Hobbies


Answered Prayers:


Continuing Concerns:

Salvation
- person 1
-person 2
Ministry Workers
-Deborah Lock
-Johnathan Chan
-Julie Evans
Rob Gaschler
Jason Mann
Gera Mann
Steve Cabrilos
Andrea Cabrilos
Zach Vaughan
Andrea Vaughan
Theo Davis
Bri Pekar
John Patton
Annette Peru
Anneliese Knox
Darren
Tyler Wachenfield/family
Jake Rasmussen/family
D.J. Jenkins/family
Pastor Randy/family
Jason Caywood/family

Immediate Family

Mom’s side Family

Christian Challenge Leaders
Amanda Wieland
Anthony Wieland
Chelsea Schlittenhart
Julianna Robinson
Katie Bennet
Alexis Kreun
Justin Lenhardt
Suraj Mashih
Sam Camarena
Alex Mar
Katy Waehner
Audrey Menager
Leondra Smith
Byron Morgan
Priority Leaders
Alex Cappelli
Brian Rappoport
Krista Green
Nathan Green
Naomi Cummins
Angela Yazzie
Jeff Kiser
Lauren Kneller
Keith Dixon
Karli Bauermeister
Ally Tepe

Social Group 1
FSBC Staff
Ron/Jackie Moore
Jim/Betty Minnick
Linda Williams
Barbara
Carolyn Berger
T-bone
Adam/Coren
Rebecca/Husband
Father’s side Family




Yearly Evaluation Template



Life/Relational Roles
Role
Long-term Goal
Projected Completion Date


1.        
1.        


1.        
1.        

  1.  


  1.  


  1.  

  1.  

Ministry/Work Roles
Role
Long-term Goal
Projected Completion Date

1.        

  1.  

  1.  
1.        


  1.  
1.        



  1.  
  1.  


Long-term Action steps
Life Roles




1.        

1.        
1.        
1.        



Long-term Action Steps
Ministry Roles





  1.  
  1.  
1.        
1.        


Implications for Roles
(Commitments/Limitations)
Life Roles

Ministry Roles

Accountability Partners
Person
Areas of Accountability


  1.  


  1.  

  1.  

Life Centering Practices
(Scheduled times)
Worship time
Retreats
Recreation
Solitude

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

A week in the life of






So...I use that word to open things up way too much. But I'm gonna try and be better about putting content up for my ministry vid blog. And I figure that doing a quick weekly recap thing is pretty easy to create. Also, life seems a little monotonous and boring. So I figure that if I have a camera out and try and record stuff it makes things a little more interesting. Forgive me if these posts waste time in your life and space on the "cloud."

But Let me know what's going on in your life so I can be praying for you!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Against Thee only

"We never see sin aright until we see it as against God."
W.S. Plummer


God has been teaching me some interesting things this past weekend.  Though none of it really came together until Monday morning at 2:13a.m.  I woke up and couldn't sleep.  I tried concentrating on praying, thought about going running, or doing work.  None of those things seemed very appealing to me at the time.  I looked over at my shelf and saw "The Pursuit of Holiness," by Jerry Bridges.  A friend had given it to me years earlier, but I'd never gotten around to reading it.  So I figured, now is as good a time as any.  Then "BAM!"  The third page and first point of the book just hit me in the face.  "Our first problem is that our attitude toward sin is more self-centered than God-centered.  We are more concerned about our own 'victory' over sin than we are about the fact that our sins grieve the heart of God."

As I started marinating on that I looked at my current spiritual state and saw how true that was of my life.  Recently I've become acutely aware that my whole life I've struggled in submitting to the authority of God.  I measure rebellion against God largely by how much I sin.  Though when I do sin I rarely pray in such away as to seek restitution between the Lord and myself.  Although I live with the knowledge that sin is an affront to God, the knowledge I have doesn't make it to my practice of life.  My prayers of confession often sound something like, "God forgive me of (insert sin).  Lord give me the strength to withstand temptation and experience freedom and victory over (insert sin)."

I continued reading and  this line stuck out.  "God wants us to walk in obedience-not victory.  Obedience is oriented toward God; victory is oriented toward self."  The way I treat sin is selfish.  I make it all about myself.  It's as if I were to punch a dear friend of mine in the face then after saying, "I'm sorry," talk about how bad I am and make excuses or try to rationalize my behavior instead of tending to my injured friend.  I make it about me.  The light bulb just went on in my head as I realized that intellectually I know Jesus as a person, but in practice I treat Jesus as a thing.  When I sin, I am more concerned with my failure and how can I prevent myself from failing again.  I've ignored the friend I have in Jesus.

You'd think after a life changing understanding of this concept of sin, I'd spend time in prayer and be bringing praise to God.  I wish that were true.  Unfortunately, as I finished out the first chapter I came across the third point, "We do not take some sin seriously."  Bridges says, "It is compromise on the little issues that leads to greater downfalls."  That's when guilt started setting in.  Because I know the truth of that statement from experience.  I began to dwell on all my failures and began critiquing every area of my life.  The message Rob Gaschler gave the night before stuck out in my head regarding prayer and seeking the Lord out of Joshua 9-11.  I began questioning decisions I've made in the past and instead of submitting and waiting on God, prayed with mind already set on what I wanted and full of rationalizations for God blessing my decisions.  Again the issue was about focusing on myself and treating God as a thing instead of a person whom I have a relationship with.

Later that day I stumbled across an old song, "The Potters Hand."  As I started practicing it in my office, I was taken back to a place I was 7 years ago, broken over sin and struggling with submitting to God's authority and call on my life.  I decided to look up the passage the song comes from which is Jeremiah 18:


   The word which came to Jeremiah from the LORD saying,
         2      “Arise and ago down to the potter’s house, and there I will announce My words to you.”
         3      Then I went down to the potter’s house, and there he was, making something on the wheel.
         4      But the vessel that he was making of clay was spoiled in the hand of the potter; so he remade it into another vessel, as it pleased the potter to make.
         5      Then the word of the LORD came to me saying,
         6      “Can I not, O house of Israel, deal with you as this potter does?” declares the LORD. “Behold, like the clay in the potter’s hand, so are you in My hand, O house of Israel.
         7      “At one moment I might speak concerning a nation or concerning a kingdom to uproot, to pull down, or to destroy it;
         8      if that nation against which I have spoken turns from its evil, I will relent concerning the calamity I planned to bring on it.
         9      “Or at another moment I might speak concerning a nation or concerning a kingdom to build up or to plant it;
         10      if it does evil in My sight by not obeying My voice, then I will think better of the good with which I had promised to bless it.
         11      “So now then, speak to the men of Judah and against the inhabitants of Jerusalem saying, ‘Thus says the LORD, “Behold, I am fashioning calamity against you and devising a plan against you. Oh turn back, each of you from his evil way, and reform your ways and your deeds.” ’
         12      “But they will say, ‘It’s hopeless! For we are going to follow our own plans, and each of us will act according to the stubbornness of his evil heart.’

In some ways I've come full circle in finding this song. I'm pretty sure 7 years ago I looked up the passage too.  But I'm not the same person I was then, because of the Potter's Hand.  God has been shaping and molding me building my confidence and trust in Him.  Now I know from experience that God is a person that actively involves Himself in my life.  Yet here I was on Monday facing the hard fact that despite the evidence of God's work in my life and knowing Him as a person, when it comes to making decisions and sin I eliminate God from the equation.  That's why the latter half of this passage stuck out to me, I probably bypassed it the first time I went through it.  (Look up Jeremiah 18:11:12)  God is Sovereign and He is working to shape me into a vessel that brings glory to Him.  As a child of God through Jesus Christ, I am made to do good works.(Ephesians 2:10) If I continue to ignore the person of Jesus Christ removing Him from my decisions and doing what I want to do instead of submitting to the hand of the Potter, He will shape calamity to turn me back to Him.  Therefore, I should stop making decisions without God.  I should be broken over sin because of the hurt I have caused Jesus, especially in light of the cross.  Jesus gave Himself so that I can be in fellowship with Him.  Fellowship with with God means forgiveness of transgression and eternity in the presence of the Holy One.  Given that I can't afford to ignore the Person of Jesus Christ.


But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; 16 for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.” 17 Since you call on a Father who judges each man’s work impartially, live your lives as strangers here in reverent fear. 18 For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, 19 but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect. 20 He was chosen before the creation of the world, but was revealed in these last times for your sake. 21 Through him you believe in God, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God. 
1 Peter 1:15-21

1.  The reason why I've had such difficulty submitting to the authority of God is because I've been ignoring the person of Jesus Christ.
2.  The purpose of my life is to bring glory to God.  God is working on me shaping me into the vessel that will most glorify Himself.
3.  Jesus Christ is a person who gave up Himself, shedding His blood on the cross so that my faith and hope might rest in God.


The Holy Bible : New International Version, electronic ed. (Grand Rapids: Zondervan, 1996), 1 Pe 1:15–21.





New American Standard Bible : 1995 Update (LaHabra, CA: The Lockman Foundation, 1995), Je 18:1–12.



Thursday, February 17, 2011

Lil life update

This past weekend i had drill for the the Army, honestly it was really hard going to this week because I didn't go last month.  It's always hard going because i really don't like the organization of the Army for a lot of reasons! However working with people is different ands not so bad.  This particular drill was fairly memorable as it replicated a lot of the humdrum of deployment.  All we did this weekend was our job along with the little issues that normally accompany missions.  I really have a love hate relationship w/ the Army.  I dislike the organization because of the way it functions sometimes but like working with the people.  This past weekend I was asked a couple times if i would commission as a Chaplain soon.  Honestly, I don't know.  I have 4 more years on my contract and I'll have been in 12 yrs.  So part of me is wondering whether not i should stay for retirement.  The other part of me is thinking 1) I can't take this anymore 2) Am I choosing to do the Army because of the financial security it offers so i don't have to worry about God providing for my needs?

Some of what plays into this is my decision to hopefully stay on another year at Christian Challenge.  This decision also involves me needing to raise support.  The past year I've been losing money working at Challenge.  It doesn't pay much and between Christian Challenge, Seminary, Army, and other obligations I don't have the time to get a normal job.  There have been other opportunities for employment but each would take me away from the ministry God has given me. 

So to prepare for this new phase of life and growth in my relationship with the Lord, I'm going to start support raising.  This is really hard for me to relinquish to God and isn't something I've ever depended on the Lord for, which is financial provision.  I've been given opportunities to see God provide this way but never saw any of those opportunities out.  I would always try and step in eliminating my need to rest confidently in the sovereignty of God's provision.  Not only did i miss out on the opportunity, I also ended up always seeing the shortcomings that result when I rely on my strength rather than the abundance of the Lord whom I serve.  So please keep me in prayer to navigate this whole process and not succumb to the lack of distrust I have for God by accepting jobs being offered to me but do not conform to the call God has placed on my life.